I have this dilemma

I feel like I already know what I need to do, but I am still not sure it's what I want to do.  I want to start dating again.  In April it will be two years since I broke up with my ex.  I thought we were headed for forever.  (Apparently not.)  I haven't really had the desire to date since the breakup.  It just felt wrong somehow.  I just haven't been ready.  Now I feel ready.

However, I also feel like I have a lot to work on personally before diving into another serious relationship.  First and foremost, my health and weight.  While I know it isn't impossible, I just don't feel like anyone can really love me how I am right now.  I also know that as soon as I meet someone I like, I'll spend less time working out and eating healthy, and more time cuddling while watching movies and eating takeout. 

So do I really want to say that I'm not interested in dating or a relationship until I reach my ideal weight or goal of wearing a certain clothing size?  It's been an eye-opening but lonely stretch of time since the break-up.  I'm ready to spend time with someone else, but I think my health needs to come first.  Who am I kidding?  I know it needs to come first.  And when I feel my best and am bursting with self confidence, I can be a better girlfriend. 

So I guess this is where I'm officially going to say I'm not dating.  I'll give it a few months and after some hard work, I may have a change of heart.  But as of right now, I'm putting all of my energy and effort into myself.