Making progress!

In the last two weeks, I have made notable progress in my life.  I've had some epiphanies.  I've come to terms with my past.  And I've gotten a lot of stuff done.

A few weeks ago, there were three guys I had on my mind.  One was Ass Hat.  One was Work Guy, Z.  And one was the musician, M.  Ass Hat and I may have had a breakthrough in out torrid crazy relationship.  And the breakthrough is that the relationship is so over and done, it isn't even funny.  But we just might be able to make the friendship work.  We're comfortable around each other and we know how to talk to each other.  The biggest problem is that I'll never trust him.  So the big question is, How good of a friend can he be if I don't trust him at all?  I suppose time will tell.

Z. was never going to happen.  He's a couple of years younger than me and still in the college frame of mind.  Translation: "Let's get wasted six nights per week."  May have been fun, but completely unfulfilling. 

And then there is M.  I really like him.  Like, really like him.  The problem is that I've felt for the last six months that he is completely out of my league and too good for me.  He's gorgeous, freaking smart and amazingly talented.  He's kind of shy, but fun to talk to once he opens up.  And I've worked on getting to know him better over the last couple of months.  My major epiphany is this: no, he's not too good for me or out of my league.  I'm beautiful, I'm smart and I have my own amazing talents.  So he's not better than me at all.  I deserve someone like him and if he's what I want, then I should go after it.  So I am.

I'm letting go of my reservations and I'm going all in.  There's an old saying that says to get big rewards, you have to take big risks.  I may get rejected and my heart may be broken all over again, but I'll never know if I don't try.  And it may change my life. 

My challenge for everyone else is to not hesitate and to go after something you want.